Brick Wall Blues

Music. I love music. Pop, Jazz, Funk, Hip-hop and many other genres I really love. Hey, I'll tell you what really I hate - THIS BLOODY TMA QUESTION ON IT!!! I must have listened to that frigging Don Giovanni duet 30 or 40 times yesterday afternoon trying to dissect it and I was sooooo bored by the end that I was a grumpy, frustrated sod for the rest of the night. All the positive energy at the start - buoyed up by TMA1 result earlier - was sapped out of me by 5:30.

What went wrong? Well, the song was just too dull and slight to make me get into analysing it. Then after the 2nd time I'd played the track the headphones for my iPod gave out (talk about bad bloody timing!). So, trying to find this melody and that rhythm etc after repeated plays on the stereo instead became an absolute chore which I was just not getting right and fucked me right off. I suppose if the headphones were working I'd have been right in the music and perhaps less distracted and more involved but fate wasn't with me yesterday. Oh no sir. I had to stop after 3 fruitless hours as I started feeling very very irritated and very, very tired . It was the kind of tired feeling I get after I've been really stressed out (I was gagging for a nap). To top it all when I did get to sleep that night I must have been dreaming about this as I woke up at 3am in a blind bewildering panic about it.

Up until this part I had managed a weak draft on each question on that I worked on in detail the next day. This time I had nothing. I've decided I'll have to take a day off next week and start all over again.

By the way, earlier in the blog I mentioned that I may be heading to Paris sometime in April. Sadly, I was a tad overexcited then about this as I'm afraid I have to report the plans have been scuppered. No, not cancelled, just scuppered. Our friend has changed her mind and thinks that Paris may be a tad expensive for her taste so instead we are going on a Trans-Europe-Trek, if you like. The plan is Lille-Bruxelles-Aachen-Koln. Not bad as it being cancelled overall and I love Lille and Koln (especially the Dom). I know I really wanted to be close to something we'd start covering on A103 that very week to fire-up the enthusiasm but beggars can't be choosers - it's a break!